That’s why you should care. — In April 2016, Italian public opinion was shocked because a child was thrown out of the window by her abuser. She hadn’t wanted to take any more of his sexual abuses. The adults who should have protected her had covered up all story. The condemnation was instantaneous towards all the…

The long-term consequences of a child sexual abuse — When I was 4–5 years old, my grandfather abused me. I had no memory of it until I was 22, and I sought some answers in psychoanalytical therapy for other abuses I had been subject to by other men. And I thought that’s it. Now maybe I will get free…

Directions by a Persephone to venture into the underworld of trauma — The other day was my 29th birthday. Every year for my birthday, I promise myself that next year I will feel less alone, and every year, I kind of fail to keep it. It’s not so much a matter of the number of people celebrating me as the kind of…

Why have we all to be beautiful? Why can we simply do not care so much about our appearance? — Once upon a time lived a king who had three daughters. They were one more beautiful and kinder than the other, with the youngest being of the most extraordinary fairness and beauty, such as no man has ever seen. These are the typical opening lines of any traditional fairytale and…

How to make sense of liking men, while so many of them consider us less than human beings — So, yesterday evening, after ghosting my umpteenth date who behaved poorly, the usual question about how I can still like men while in the meantime being afraid of them and hating them so much. It’s a paradoxical dilemma that I struggle to solve. I’m an adult survivor of child sexual…

When you bottom out, there is no other way but to climb back — INTRODUCTION This piece was the second part of a long-read piece I wrote for @fearlessshewrote on my emotional dependency. In truth, its editor team wanted to learn more about it, and that’s the reason behind the long-form divided into two sections. Anyway, around one month ago, they published the first part…

When the subconscious speaks the language of the fairies — The other day I had a weird dream. I dreamt of two men, an old one and a younger one. I laid numb on the floor, leaving the older man to undress me and restrain my mouth with a striped tie, strictly bound around my tongue. I vividly perceived its…

It's exactly the attitude I mentioned at the end of my latest piece. When I tell men my story of abuses and toxic relationships, they are aghast by my experiences, like I am a strange creature living in a world of monsters and orcs. They seem completely oblivious of things like rape, domestic violence, femicide, childhood abuse, and so on. However, then, you would expect some human empathy and respect for the delicateness of your situation. Instead, they keep making allusions about you having fun sex with them because they are sure they have nothing in common with the monsters of your past.

How social norms, family dynamics, and intimate relationships fed my personality disorder — Trigger Warning: this article contains descriptions of childhood sexual abuse that may not be suitable for all readers. Fearless community, please read with care. This winter, I was diagnosed with emotional dependency. I have been struggling with this personality disorder all my life, and I have been four times in…